Well my classes are going just fine. I have done what I needed to do concerning my children. Now I have to find somewhere for us to stay because the people that said they were helping me really wasn't. Because once they got that call saying that they were no longer over the money the brought them back home. My oldest son however decided that he doesn't want to stay with me. So he is staying with them. But not for long because when we go to court Wednesday he will get a big surprise. Because its not about where he wants to stay but about what needs to happen to make him be the person he needs to be for himself. So he stop being around bad influences and stop doing the wrong thing.

life in general

Well I have started a new semester. And it is going good. But my home life has gotten worse. My nephew and his wife are trying to take my youngest sons from me because she wants the money that the get. I don't believe my nephew would do this to me if it wasn't for her. She has put it in his head that they can take better care of them then I can. All because they are married, they both have jobs, and they have a house better than mine. I am at a lost. I don't know what to do. This is how it all came about. I was looking for a house to move to because the one I am in is not fit for anyone to be staying in anymore. I found a really nice house but the rent is a hundred dollars more than what I am paying now. He seems to think that, that is to much for me to be paying for rent and that I won't be able to handle it. I said I can but he doesn't want to give me the money to give the landlord so I can move in. He wants me to get a cheaper house or an apartment. And this house was a way for me to come up from where I have been and where I am at now. But that's not how he sees it. So I am stuck in an unsafe house with no way to pay my bills because he is not giving me money for that either. I received a 625 settlement and had to use that to pay jea and my phone bill. So now I don't know what to do. I love my nephew but I can't let them take my sons. If anyone has any advice please help me out. Cause I really need it.

So far things are going okay with me, the children, and just life in general. My daughter is still working, I am trying to get counseling for my sons and myself. I am making it. I just take it day by day. I haven't received anything from school yet concerning me having to sit out a semester. I am hoping I won't have to sit out. I pray every day about it. Thanks to a good friend I am moving toward my goals on my vision board. I getting better with letting the old me go and le the new me in a little. I know that it will take time for me to get to where I wanna be but I have the patients and the time. And I know as long as I believe I can do it, I will. I will praying and staying strong more and more every day. Cause I know thats what I have to do for me and my children to have a better life.

Ending the semester

Well I am ending the semester with good spirits. I know I passed two of my classes and the other two I will have take again. I will just go to FCCJ to see about signing up for summer classes. So I can do them and get them out the way. I am now writing things down and am getting help to do other things to help keep me on track. I know that I have a long way to go but I believe I can and will make it. This is my last week of school. But I go back next week to take my finals. I am struggling to take care of me and my children but my faith has been renewed today. Threw a friends testimony. I know that it will get better. So I would like to thank this person for your inspiration and encouragement. I have enjoyed working with you and getting to know you. I hope that we can stay in touch with each other once my semester is over. I plan to still come and help you out whenever I can. Thank you for all support.

Just Fed Up

Today is just like any other day. I am so feed up it don't make sense to me. Life has really been hard on me but not as hard as it has been lately. Sometimes I just wanna throw my hands up and say forget it. Forget going to school, forget trying to better myself and my kids lives. I have to go through to much. I recently found out that I might not be able to go to summer school like I want to. I have the moneyfrom financial aid but I don't have enough credits to go. I might even have to sit out for a semester which is not what I want to do. I want to stay with it. Because I know how I will get. I will sit out for a semester and then when it is time to go back I won't. Because I will have gotten comfortable sitting at home. And I dont want that. It feels like everytime I take a giant leap forward something is always pulling me back saying you can't do it. But I am determined to prove it and everyone else wrong about me. Even if I have to switch schools and finish there that is what I will do. I am feed up with myself for always wanting to throw in the towel when things get to complicated for me. I have to stop doing that to myself and tell myself that you can and will complete your eucation to becoming the teacher thatyou want to be.

math!

Why is it so hard. I use to love it but now I hate it. It just confuses me. I try to figure it out sometimes but I have a hard time doing it. This is my third semester of school and I have had to take college algebra twice because I just can't get it. I might have to take it for the summer. I hope I can anyway. I hope this does not stop me from gettting to where I am tyring to go. But I will not give up no atter what.